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Life has this thing where it very often convinces me and maybe you, that God is a lie. That "hope" is hopeless. That we should all give it all up.
There's no point.
In fact, most famous question, "What is life?"
And what is it?
But a couple of years, or months, weeks, days, hours, second, now, never.
Then, before, here, after.
And you know, life almost always wins.
Sometimes the things that do not make sense shout at us.
Screaming in our face.

And you know what else shows up,
Questioning.
Frustration.
A desperate earnest search.
Oblivious that we are searching.
Because it's just what we know life needs us to do.
GOD IS REAL.
And like has been said
"That is that about that."
And you know how there is always an either, or an or.
Well, either or.
Either let him walk with you.
And show you how to walk through life.
Or.
And each day will be a day to pick.
I know sometimes we make it look like a platform.
You know a run to when nothing makes sense. And you are at the end of yourself.
And maybe that is true.maybe He is that avenue to find peace or whatever else.but maybe He is calling you for more.
More intimacy.
More faith.
More transformation.
More meaning in life
More beauty.
Life has this thing where it often pushes me to points of utter discouragement,
Near depression.
And I know you hear me.
And you know what?
That in itself is enough.
It's always a ball in your court.
And like they say, " up to you to shoot your shot."
And it is safe to say I have over quoted today.😂😊

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