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Twenty!

            i was supposed to post this on the nineteenth of april, when i turned twenty but clearly that didn't happen as i am ten days late. but here goes. better late than never. and also, future employer if you are reading this, this does not mean that i am bad with time and managing it and beating deadlines. ( i know a couple of my homies are laughing out loud right now.)



             I'm reading a book; Delighting in the Trinity by Michael Reeves.  I've only covered one chapter but it was so good that I'm here and you're here too so let's dive in! Trinity. I'll quickly tell you what it's not. It is not something to shove to the back of your heads as a by the way, oh yeah ''He's three in one, whatever that means.'' I know things that  you can't really make sense of are hard to find beautiful, but stay with me. This is.
              Trinity. God is three in one. Not three, not one but three in one. I thought, I guess I should post something on my birthday, you know, even though my posts are never really about me as an individual. And I thought, ''what is going to be not cheesy but still get my point home?'' and it's trinity.             
             One of my favorite things about God recently actually. The fact that He is three in one. Father and Spirit and Son. The book explains that that, is the very reason why God is loving.  God, from eternity has been life giving: and if he needed to first create us to be considered a life giver that would make Him a needy God, something he is far from. He has always been Father. Let me explain how; the son. Who has forever been the son. Eternally begotten. All in the fellowship of the Holy Spirit. Three in one. God would not be Father if he did not love. And God is love.
          The father has always loved the son and the son has always loved the Father. Through the Holy Spirit. From before time began, God is love. and Father. My father. Your Father. Our father. I listened to a song (as always) called dust. Real simple but beautiful.

 ''I am depending on Love
The hope of Your promise to us
That we are Your daughters and sons
And gently You're fathering us.''

 Gently he has fathered me. For twenty beautiful crazy years. I am humbled beyond words, moved beyond tears, grateful beyond these years. Gently he fathers you. And in an even more beautiful way when you let him. But imagine becoming aware of his fathering. Imagine seeing the ways in which He carried you. The ways in which He wants to. The ways in which He walked beside you. Even though you strayed. and how he stayed. Stays. 

 I am not trying to paint your ''perfect out of this world rainbows and butterfly fairy tale ending'' father. He will discipline you and show you the way in which you should go and sometimes honestly feel absent(emphasis on feel). 

 But He will be a good good father. I pray that you will see it and delight in the trinity. 

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